On December 6 at 4:02 Daniel Martin Bessette’s life here on earth ended.
For our 21 years together this was the one thing that could not happen. During our journey we prepared for this moment at two disctinct situations before. We feared it…. we chose it… …we ran from it….we wondered about it… at times it seemed like the solution …. and ultimately the shock could never be something we were prepared to endure.
The shock that it happened.
The shock that it is forever.
The shock of all the memories that have flooded me.
The shock at the pain…. the hurt… the anger….
The shock of how I don’t want to be around people and then how deafening the silence is.
It is all so incredibly complicated and yet I am left with one simple way to explain: Danny brought a vibrance and color to my life like I have never experienced. I started writing because I was desperate to find a way to capture it. Our lives were incredibly special and I wanted a way to remember it all. That vibrance has left. And as life takes so many journeys where the vibrant would morph and change, the reality of how a person can so deeply impact life remains true.
Danny would not want our lives to be without color. In fact, the gift of knowing this possibility of death, we actually discussed it. And yet I also feel a beautiful sense of duty that honoring his life includes taking the time to find our new way. And so today, starting back to writing, it is one foot in front of the other.
Danny, we love you. We miss you and we feel you with us all the time. Our family is forever changed, but still remains. And you always told me I was stronger than I thought, I know that we both know I can do this. Thank you for sharing your life with me, with Shannon and with our pups.
Thank you so much for reading and remember to make it a great day!
Jackie
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